Infertility and miscarriage, and associated treatments (such as IVF), are such difficult and emotionally challenging journeys and unfortunately there are no guarantees of the precious rainbow child/children you so powerfully desire and long for.
I have been where you are, and understand the utter devastation that comes from seeing yet another negative result, from being told after the dreaded two week wait that you have been unsuccessful and I understand the plummeting depths of despair after pregnancy loss. The loss is so hard to take. You are completely normal if you are struggling with the challenges that your fertility journey are hurling at you.
The only way I moved forward, inch by inch was to step back from the busyness of life and take care of myself. This allowed me the time to grieve the loss of what could and should have been, forgive my body for previous ‘failures’, get myself balanced and strong again, and then look ahead at the possibilities.